So, I think about things all the time. Pretty much over think things, actually. And lately, I've been having the ups and downs about where I'm at lately. You know, the whole job thing. Why does life seem to have to revolve around a job? How dumb is that, right?
Well, I graduated this past May, and somehow I just knew, deep down, that I was going to come home and things were going to be exactly the same as they were before I left. Because, well, I had been in and out of college for the last 7 years... why would anything else be different, right? School is pretty much all I've known my entire life. So, here I am, once again, out of school... most likely heading back next fall to get my Master's. Of course! What else? And then what? Who knows.
I'm bumming about not acquiring a job in my field (yet), but I know my time will come. Right now I'm just paying my dues. And I ALSO know that I like where I am, location-wise, much more than where I was the last 3 or so years. The following is my apology to Potsdam:
Sorry, Town of Potsdam, but I don't miss you at all. I don't miss the fact that you were in the middle of nowhere. I don't miss the fact that you provided location for a building called Crane School of Music that had me going crazy all hours of the day, 8 months out of the year. I don't miss having to force myself to practice in little cells for 2-3 hours a day. I don't miss that stupid little apartment I lived in for 2 1/2 years that only spat out hot water for 4.3 minutes before turning cold. I don't miss having to clean mold off of the ceiling every 2 1/2 weeks. I won't miss stepping outside and having my nose hairs freeze off. I don't miss the fact that the only two options you had to go grocery shopping were Big M and Wal-Mart. I don't miss the fact that you kept me 185 miles away from my best friends and my family, and around 300 miles away from my boyfriend. I don't miss paying you money to make me work and sweat so hard.
Okay, okay... so it sounds like I had an awful time there. But not completely. Things I will miss about this place, are summed up with basically two things: the friends I made there, and 1-2-3 night. (How can anyone compete with 1-2-3 night, unless they have one themselves??)
So, life is absolutely fine right about now. I can take a hot shower for up to 30 minutes if I'd like (but don't- it's just nice that the option is there); when I practice clarinet it's because I actually really, really want to; my ceilings are fungus-free; I've got Wegmans 10 minutes away from my house, and I only have to drive anywhere from 5 to 45 minutes to get to my dearest friends and boyfriend. It's a fine trade-off, if you ask me.
